I have been thinking, today mostly, and indirectly a lot recently as well about my life and the way I live and how my perspective takes shape. Today and yesterday specifically I thought about superheroes and our incessant need in society to have the superhero effect in our lives and what I mean by that is that to me it seems as if we want ultimate or absolute solutions in our lives. You know where we are always in a winning situation and where we are strong enough to force whatever life throws at us into a submissive hold and be victorious. Recently I watched Captain America and before that I watched X-Men and all these superheroes have these abilities that make them omnipotent, almost invulnerable. Isnt that the whole point then? Invulnerability is the one thing all of us so badly want because we just cannot face losing or having to deal with the reality that life is as much a part of being vulnerable as it is about trying to be a superhero.

The thing that struck me is that my life does not seem to want to accept a middle-ground, you know where a superhero has all these powers that make all his foes ultimately more vulnerable than him or her, I don’t have an ultimate or absolute. There is no middle ground for a superhero, they are just more powerful and more absolute than I will ever be. So if I cannot live that absolute life where do I find the middle ground? Where is the acceptance? At what point in my life do I realise that I cannot have the absolute of anything, because ultimately I pay the price – death. But in other facets of life an ultimate or absolute is not always the answer. Striving for the ultimate answer to everything will lead to disappointment. There has to be peace somewhere.